Untitled
By: Rena "Sama" / 'the light'
6-24-00
DISCLAIMER: I own nothing.
NOTE: This is the very first fanfic I EVER wrote!

Part V

The rest of dinner went without too many mishaps. Kakarotto still looked at me hungrily from the other end of the table. I looked away and scowled

-Don't look at me that way-

Apparently our little romp in the bathroom wasn't enough. Kami he's insatiable! I think to myself and feel his dress stocking foot run up my leg. I sneer in warning at him; in an effort to get him to stop. He does...but reluctantly.

-No self control at all..-

***

We leave the restaurant soon after finishing our meal. The food was pretty good... but I'm not a picky eater anyway. Bejiita walks next to Buruma towards the car. Our wives and family separate us.

-Trying to put distance between us again huh Bejiita?-

Why does he still refuse me?....even after all we've done? I know he feels guilt for what we do. I can see it in his eyes when he looks at Buruma...and Buruma, she won't even look at me anymore.

-She must know something's up-

How long will we go on like this?..hiding from our wives? Having to sneak around and lie just to keep up our new relationship is go damn frustrating. I'm sure Bejiita agrees. I know it must be eating him alive to have to live like this. He's a prince... and probably used to just taking what he wants without a second thought. But he suffers through all this anyway...to be with me.

A small smile tugs at my lips at that. "Aishiteru ...Kakarotto.." he whispered into my ear that day. I smile even more at the memory and turn to watch him put the car into drive and pull off. I never mastered driving...I remember my last lesson was a complete disaster. Actually Bejiita is pretty good at it. I watch him make a right turn and Boruma looks out the window riding shotgun with him in the front. I sit in the back next to Chichi and the kids. It's kinda snug...

***

I can't wait to get home.

-Why won't that baka drive a little faster?!-

I slip my usual sweet smile on to cover up how angry I am. I can't believe they'd do that in the bathroom. He came back with his clothes slightly in disarray. Anyone else would not have noticed but he's really picky about that that sort of thing. "There was a line.." yea right. How could he lie right to my face like that? I look out the window so no one can see me seething. My eyes travel down to the small mirror on the car door. I can see him smiling...

-Kono yaro..-

..smiling and staring wistfully at Bejiita...MY husband!..I'm so mad I could kill him! I can't let this go on anymore! I won't.

-Ojitsuke! Boruma!-

Tomorrow.....first thing tomorrow we're gonna settle this. Yea...that'll give me some time to think...

***

Bejiita drops us off before driving off in their capsule corp car. Chichi is too tired to boss me around so she just goes to sleep immediately after seeing the kids off to bed. Torankusu asked to sleep over here. I see nothing wrong with that. Thought I always thought he and Goten seemed really close. Maybe a bit too close.

Chichi passes out on our bed. She doesn't even bother to take off her dress.

-Chichi...-

I feel guilt too...for betraying her. But it's so hard to love her sometimes. She treats me more like one of her own children than her husband and a grown man. I try to make her happy, but all I do is piss her off even though I do everything she says.

Why can't I make her happy? Even Bejiita is easier to please...I think back to our earlier rendezvous. He just seems to melt into me when I touch him. He's so sensitive.

-Bejiita...-

I feel myself hardening at the memory. But he still keeps pushing me away. Even after his declaration. Is he having second thoughts about us?

-I could still lose him-

He does love Buruma after all. After all out little episodes he always felt guilty. We both do. He may still choose her over me...

-I could lose him-

A knot of dread form in the pit of my stomach. I wouldn't have him! I'd be stuck in an unhappy marriage...all the while what I really want is there ...but always just out of reach. all the years I wanted him and couldn't so much as touch him was maddening enough.

-I'd lose my mind!-

...lose him...NO! Not now when I'm so close to finally having what I want! I can't let that happen! I won't! Zettai ni!

Tomorrow.....first thing tomorrow we're gonna settle this. Yea...that'll give me some time to think...

***

I only sleep an hour or so. Something's nagging at the back of my head. Something important going to happen today. A feeling of apprehension washed over me keeping me from sleep.

At sunrise orange and pink rays of light peek through the clouds and the sun starts it's long journey for the day. It's gonna be a long day I thought to myself; my feeling of discomfort still is with me.

I stand at the front door and look outside. At least it'll be a nice day I think to myself and breathe in the fresh morning air. Then suddenly my vision is blocked by someone clad in an orange and blue shirt. "Kakarotto? what are you doing here?" I ask a little startled. "We have to talk ...now!" "We have to tell them! I won't live this way anymore" he nearly screams. "Damn it keep your voice down you wake up...." "Ah Gokuu san so nice of you to stop by." Buruma seems to just appear behind me. My gaze shifts from my wife behind me to my lover in front of me..I'm caught in the middle.

-Shit-

"It's just as well you're here. I need to talk to you...both of you" she said cooly. But her voice dripped with anger, pain and left no room for argument.

"Sit down" she says flatly. Normally I would have yelled or spat back some insult after she ordered me around. But not this time.

"Buruuma, kiite kuda..." Kakarotto started. "NO..you listen! She cut him off. "Just let me speak. I know about you and my husband Son san", she said very formally and acted as if I wasn't there. She knows I hate that. "I know it's been going on for some time now, and that you've been hiding it and lying about it. She paused and then said; I saw you...in the gravity room" she choked slightly. I feel my stomach churn and my face pale a little.

Boruma regained her composure and spoke again. "I want to share a little revelation with you. I knew even before that day. The looks you gave each other when you thought no one noticed. When next I saw Gokuu I tried to stop him somehow by saying how much I love you." She looked at me as she said this. "Maybe if you knew how much I love him Gokuu you'd think twice about who you were hurting...who you were stealing from. But I knew my efforts were in vain. I could tell by the look in Bejiita's eyes when he looks at you that I had lost the battle before I even knew there was one. Now I know how Bejiita must feel when he fights with you."

I grimaced at that, knowing the truth in the statement.

-I wouldn't kill him even if I could-

"So I won't fight anymore." Boruma is usually such a spirited, hard-headed person, but she knows when she's been beaten. Defeated, she let out a long sigh before she speaks again. "Gokuu san, I have just one question." Kakarotto had been nearly silent the entire time. Though he said little, his comforting hand on my shoulder spoke volumes.

"Yes Buruuma?" he said quietly. "Do you love him?"

He hesitated for a moment, and I looked back at him and into his eyes for the first time since this whole ordeal began.

"Hai.." was all he said.

-I didn't doubt it...not even for a second-

"Good" Boruma said as if Kakarotto had answered some simple question. "Then what will you do now?" she asked us. Kakarotto spoke up first. "I'm gonna leave Chichi." "She's not gonna be too happy to hear about all this...you know her temper" Boruma warned. I simply sat there, my eyes shifting from one to the other as they spoke. "Aa wakatta" Kakarotto said calmly. They both seemed much less tense now.

-How can they be so calm?-

"Bejiita, we'll have to tell our children too you know" he reminds me. I nod. Then his face grew more serious. "I'll go talk to Chichi now" he said solemnly. "I'll go with you" I said finally. He seemed shocked that I would want to but smiled none the less.

He's always the hero, always the one who overcomes any obstacle alone no matter how hard. Not this time.

-Just like he was there for me I'll be there for him-

"I'll go get my things" I said. When I returned he got up and walked towards the door. It was mid morning by now and the sun shown so brightly that Kakarotto looked like a black silhouette with spiky hair standing against it. He waited for me there.

I looked back at Boruma again. She is truly admirable. She's so calm and took this all so well. She's so much like me in that her pride wouldn't let her true feelings come out, wouldn't let us see how truly heartbroken she was. No, she kept her composure and her head held high. Buruuma...so strong...even stronger than me with all my saiyajin power.

I stared long and hard into her eyes hoping mine would convey all that I was feeling. I'm still no good with words. She smiled slightly in understanding. I walked over and hugged her tightly one last time.

"Sayonara Buruuma..."

Then I turn to leave her and the place I called home for over a decade forever.

Kakarotto takes off for his suburban home to fight the hardest of all battles: with his wife Chichi.

***

We reached my house shortly after. "I'm amazed at how well that went" I said over my shoulder. Bejiita simply hn's. I can see the sadness in his black eyes. He and Boruma are so much alike. Their pride always keeps them from showing or admitting how they really feel.

As we walk towards the door I spy Torankusu and Goten sparing out of the corner of my eye. They call to us and run over but stop in their tracks when they see the serious looks on out faces. Looks we only use when going into battle.

I steeled my nerves and opened the door. I heard two sets of scampering feet run to the door and then stop after it closed.

"GOKUU!..It's about time you got ho.." she stopped her tirade in mid sentence when she saw I wasn't alone. "Chichi, we have to talk" I said with a little less courage than when speaking with Buruuma. "You're damn right we do!!"

-Does she already know?-

"Where the hell have you been?! You missed breakfast!! And how many times have I told you..." "Damn it woman will you stop your incessant yelling? That's not what we're here to talk about!" I was a bit shocked at Bejiita's outburst, especially when he as so quiet before.

"Chichi I have something to tell you."

***

I've never seen Kakarotto so afraid before. It's so strange how with all out suupa saiyajin power we actually fear our wives. If the situation weren't so serious I might just laugh. I move from the wall I was leaning on and walk towards him. I put a comforting hand on his shoulder now.

We'll get through this I think to myself as Kakarotto tells Chichi about what's happened between us. I saw her face shift through several expression before it finally settled on confused sadness. She sat there motionless for a while as Kakarotto finished his story. "Chichi I'm leaving." Then she looked at me and a familiar look returned to her face: anger. She launched herself at me, or at least tried to had Kakarotto not caught her. She looked like she would kill me if she could.

"Kisama....kisama no se da!!" You've warped his mind! It's you! It's your fault he's hardly ever around! All...all those times he was nowhere to be found...he was with YOU! she screamed and thrashed about trying to break free of Kakarotto's hold. "I never trusted you saiyajins! And now you've stolen my husband..." her voiced sounded so pained and small.

"I'm saiyajin too Chichi" And no Bejiita didn't do anything. I love him of my own free will."

She simply started in shocked disbelief. That last statement had taken most of the fight out of her. "Demo...what about your sons?" "Of course I'll visit them all the time, and maybe they can come visit me too."

Then the two boys listening at the door burst in. "TOUSAN! the yelled in unison. "IYA..papa you can't leave!" Torankusu yelled. "Torankusu, you know we'll see each other again. But I can't live that way anymore...with Boruma I mean." "But..he sniffed...don't you love mom anymore?" "I do, but not the way I love Kakarotto."

While Torankusu and I spoke, Kakarotto left the room to go gather his few belongings. When he returned I got up and walked towards the door, giving him some time. He walked towards Goten and gave him a long hug. "Don't be sad Goten...I'll come back to see you soon" he said as the tears rolled down Goten's cheeks. They he walked to Chichi. He hugged her just as I had hugged Buruuma and said: "I hope one day you can find someone who makes you happy."

"Goodbye Chichi..."

Then we left...we left it all behind that day. He came to stand next to me at the door. He held my hand, put two fingers to his forehead and in a flash we were gone.

***

I don't know what's in store for us.
We're going to a place that has no paths.
Things might not work out for us there.
That's why we have to go....
If we go forward with just that the world will open up before us.

We'll make our own path.
We'll find our way...
together.

FIN.

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[1] Kono yaro = That bastard

[2] Ojitsuke! = Calm down!

[3] Zettai ni ! = Never!

[4] Kiite kudasai = Please listen

[5] Aa..wakatto = Yea I know

[6] Kisama = You (extremly impolite and rude aka you little fucker)

[7] Kisama no se da! = It's all your fault!

[8] Demo = But

[9] Iya = No

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Author's Comments

I hope you enjoyed this fic. This is actually my very first fanfiction. I was worried it would be horrible but it turned out just fine.

I made some changes to the characters. I portrayed a nicer, well adjusted Bejiita who's more up front about his feelings and isn't in such denial about them as he is in the series. I showed this by his side thoughts. Kakarotto is also alot sharper and sees and understands lot more about people and things than usual. Buruuma and Chichi are pretty much as they are in the series.

In this fic I tried to bring to life what I thought they always implied in the show and made it realistic. In that I mean them being a bit confused by their feelings for each other at first. How they actually discuss their feelings and feel some guilt for their wives when they act on these emotions. Instead of just killing them off I actually tackled the touchy issue and just had Gokuu and Bejiita I guess divorce them. Thus guilt isn't always hanging over their heads, and they needn't lie about it or hide it. They can just love each other freely.

In the end I took the last lines of the Utena movie Adolescence Mokushiroku. It seemed to perfectly portray what may go through their heads as they leave it all behind just as Utena and Anshi had. Actually I took a number of lines in this fic from others movies or from the DBZ show itself

Examples

"Dou suru Kakarotto = Bejiita: Majin Bejiita saga episode 2
"I want to share a little revelation with you" = Matrix: Agent Smith
"Kisama no se da" = Berserk: Casuka
"I hate myself sometimes = Bejiita: majin Bejiita Saga. Actually the line was "I hated myself!"
"We're going to a place that has no paths. Things might not work out for us there. That's why we have to go....
If we go forward with just that the world will open up before us. We'll make our own path." = Utena Movie

Well I really hope you enjoyed the fic. Thanks for reading :>

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